Back to the Future

   Diamonds, I want you to think of the person you were at the beginning of September. What did you think would happen to you this school year? What were the goals you had for yourself? Who were your closest friends? Who was the one girl you couldn't stand? What was your favorite song? Just think about all the things you knew, and everything you wanted to know.

   Now, being the eight-month-older version of yourself I would like you to imagine if you had a time machine and you could go back to visit this person that you were in September. What would you tell them?

   I had this thought a while ago, and I came up with a whole list of things I would tell myself about what happened in the past eight months. I had about twenty-five things I would've told myself  if I had a time machine (one of them was a warning about the weather that we got this winter), but after I looked over the list a couple of times I realized that the majority of the items began with the word  "Don't," and that kind of bothered me.

   I love who I am, and I know that to become the person I am I had to survive every single one of those "don'ts" so that I can be exactly where I am right now. We have to make mistakes, we have to have regrets, we have to hit rock bottom, doing these things are going to happen to us, but it makes us who we are.

   So I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't focus too much energy on the past. Your future is the only thing you have control of.

  And I guess if I did get that time machine, I wouldn't go back to my past self with a list. I would go back and give her a big hug and tell her

                                          "You're going to fuck up. but that's okay."

Firefighting-Ballerina's

I'm sure all of you have been asked the question, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Recently I have been feeling like it is a daily question.

Have you ever asked a little child the same question? Children live for this question. They either prepare their answers days in advance or they make it up right on the spot.

Little boys will usually tell you "I want to be a police officer!" or "I want to be a firefighter!" when you ask them why they want to be those things they will usually tell you, "because they save lives!" which is so heart warming. 

From my own personal experience I have found that girls generally give better answers to the question:

"What do you want to be when you grow up?"

"Well I want to be a horse rider, but only on Tuesdays and Thursdays, then on the Weekends like Saturday and Sunday I want to be a Ballerina and a Mother, then on Monday Wednesday and Friday I want to be a Veterinarian so I can save animals lives because I love horses."

See? Females have always been way more creative.

Obviously there's a shift between being a little kid and becoming a teenager (yeah, I know, puberty but that's not what I'm talking about here!) I guess we just become exposed to the real world, and the harsh reality of growing up. We can't have three or four jobs every week, and we can't pick a career just to save lives, we have to start thinking about what kind of schooling we'll need, how much money we'll make, if we can afford a place to live on that salary, are we going to have to get another job?

I refuse to fall into that way of thinking. Maybe it's extremely naive of me, but I refuse to think that a high-paying job is the only thing that'll make me happy in this world, and that's what I want to be, I just want to be happy when I grow up.

So maybe I won't become extremely rich and live in a penthouse, maybe I'll spend my life backpacking through Europe and Asia writing a blog about my travels and never make a dime, but I'll be happy and that's all that matters.

Diamonds, go back to being young again. Dream big. Rescue people. Find four different jobs. Just be happy, and if all else fails, marry rich!

When the Going Gets Tough

Want to know something I've recently realized?

 People give up on relationships too easily.

I want you to think of all of the greatest love stories of all time think of ones from different time periods, think of movies, books, musicals, think of them all.

Alrighty now answer this simple question, if they boy were to give up on the girl when times got hard, would they end up living happily ever after? Allow me to answer that- No.

I know "destiny" is a thing, but if you were truly meant to be with someone you would fight for them. You wouldn't let them walk home alone after they jumped out of your car because you were being a jerk. You wouldn't stop talking to them because they stopped talking to you. You would pick up the phone, and text them making sure they're okay.

Maybe it's just me, but I have never really witnessed, first-hand someone fight for a person they want to be with.

So Diamonds, when a realtionship gets difficult you can call it quits and walk out, but don't ever expect that person to walk back into your life. 

The night time you find someone you care about getting out of your car, don't let them walk home alone. Fight for them.

The Young & Reckless

You know whats fun?

Being a teenager.

You know what sucks?

Being a teenager.

Lets be real, this is the time of our lives where we find ourselves. We are constantly making mistakes and hating ourselves for it, but we really shouldn't be.

Your teenage years are the best time to make all your mistakes. You can't make these mistakes in your adult years, because then there are some serious consequences (not that you'll get away with everything now).

Next time you find yourself debating over something and find yourself awake all night questioning all your possibilities just consider the worst case scenario, and if it isn't that bad-then what is stopping you? and there is usually a slim chance that the worst case will even happen. When it comes to consequences I have always asked myself "Will this matter to me in five years?" and 9/10 times it won't, and that's something you should ask yourself when debating about doing something.

Diamonds, stop thinking and just do!

What are you going to tell your grandchildren about if you never schedule that audition, ask that girl to prom, or learn how to ride a motorcycle.


"Do something today that your future self will thank you for."

Nothing Less Than Butterflies

Since I have become more open minded this year I have been learning a lot of lessons.

And the truth is Diamonds, everyone is a teacher. Even the most unexpected people have the most valuable lessons to teach you.

I know you are sick of me mentioning this show, but I will (once again) make a reference to Sex and the City. Although each of these ladies are polar opposites of each other they are soul mates, and their mistakes only teach me more about what life is and how to get through it. One by one. episode by episode, season by season, these girls lived their lives in the Big Apple, and I watched and absorbed every ounce of it.

Firstly, Samantha taught me that I never have to apologize for who I am.

Miranda taught me to make exceptions to the people who matter most to you.

Charlotte taught me to never give up on my dreams no matter how many times I fail.

And Miss Carrie Bradshaw taught me to never settle for anything less than butterflies, and to never stop looking for the love I deserve.

Yes, it may seem strange that I learned these lessons from characters on TV, but if you're going to be more open minded in life you have to realize that every person will teach you a lesson, even the fictional ones.

“Some people are settling down,

 some people are settling

 and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies."

-Carrie Bradshaw

2014 Reason to Resolution

Alright Diamonds, time to start all over. I think it's safe to say that we all want to change a little something about ourselves this year, we all has resolutions, and that's what makes New Years fun! It's filled with new chances and opportunities.

Thus I have come up with three very important New Years Resolutions to set myself up for success this year.

1. Blog more: I miss writing everyday and I think this blog will help me get myself back on track.

2. Keep an open mind about everything: I've noticed that everyone has a reason for doing everything, and instead of judging them I should try to understand them.

3. (This ones my favorite) I want to make one person smile everyday. Putting a smile on someones face is possibly the most rewarding thing ever, and I want to make people happy because why not?

Diamonds, don't map out your year step-by-step. Let things take their course, and this year will be great for you, but I do strongly encourage you to pick one thing you would like to improve about yourself and stick with it; maybe you want to be happier, or stronger, or more forgiving. Whatever you decided to do keep a positive attitude, and your year will be fabulous.

All the Small Things

Isn't winter the most magical time of year?

Snow falls, stories by the fire side, warm cup of tea, and lots of blankets.

Winter has always had to power to make me feel like a child again, which is something I've been needing lately. I've forgotten what it's like to be amazed by the little things, to spend quality time with the people you most value, and to watch old Christmas specials again.

They may seem like little things to some people, but they've been the most help for me. I didn't quite know how hard this year was going to be on me, and because of all the pressure I've been put under I need little things like this to keep me grounded.

Maybe you've been under some pressure too, Diamonds, and I hope you find a way to recover from the pressure, or simply avoid it for a few days.

Because generally speaking, life sucks. It's a harsh reality we all face at some point and time, but the little things that make you smile are what keeps you going.

Little things like snowflakes.