Derek: Part 3

Remember that incredibly embarrassing voice mail I left for Derek?

Remember how I prayed to God he wouldn't call back?

He did.

On my birthday (which was Saturday by the way! I'm posting about that later, this takes priority over that). Sadly I was at the movies seeing "Life of Pi," So his call went to voice mail.

His voicemail was very smart. a simply "Hey Pheebs. It's Derek. Got your call, it made me laugh. Good to hear from you. Call me back when you get the chance."

Why the hell couldn't I have thought of that? I bet that's a guy gene "The ability to leave perfect voice mails." I'll bet it's in that special Y cromosone that us girls don't get. Anyways...

After listening to his voice mail on Saturday night debated for three days whether or not I should call him back. So I went to my trusted friend Kate with the question.

"If you, like, call someone and leave a terribly awkward voice mail, and then they call you back, but you miss it, should you call them back? I'm so terrible at these things..."

"why don't you just call this person at a time in which they cannot pick up? Then they have to worry about calling you back."

Ugh. Kate is such a genius it bothers me.

However her idea was perfect so I called up Derek Tuesday night, at a time which I thought would be inconvenient.

I was wrong.

Turns out Derek is completely free during the 4 o'clock hour. Like any fucking normal person. I'm such a blond.

So like the idiot I am my first words were "You weren't suppose to pick up the phone."

That is such a great way to start the conversation. Not.

However, Derek being the perfect boy that he is did not care, he laughed it off, and began a conversation with me.

I'm not going to go into perfect detail about our conversation right now simply because that would make this post very long.

I can tell you something brief that we discussed.

I told him, "Honestly, I'm not so sure as to whether I miss you, or I just miss summer."

Now I know that sounds harsh, but trust me Derek is the kind of guy who doesn't get offended easily.

He's also the kind of guy who is very confident, because he flat-out said that he just missed me.

Which honestly really shocked me. So of course I change the conversation as quickly as I could.

All of a sudden I realized, it was like nothing had changed. It was July 20th again, and Derek and I were just talking. Except this time we were far apart and not right next to each other.

The second I hung up the phone I realized, that I did actually miss Derek. I missed his curly hair, his smile, his crappy taste in music, and his stupid shoes.

I also realized that in life there are perfect moments.

And now is not my moment to be with Derek.