Fate, Stars, and One Broken Heart.

Have you ever wondered if you life is predetermined?

Is there someone out there that knows your future, but you still have to go through it?

Do you ever look up to the stars and say a prayer?

Don't worry this post won't just be a questionnaire, I'm actually about to make a point.

First a quick intro, back in middle school I had my heartbroken by a boy who I had the biggest crush on ever. So this boy (lets call him Dick) found out I liked him, and then avoided me like crazy, and had seven girlfriends in one month. ANYWAYS...

I was so heart broken ( and kind of stupid) that I would pray to God every night for a sign,

"God, or anyone that really cares to listen actually, can you give me a sign? Can you show me if this boy and I are meant to be together? You don't have to give it to me right away, you can wait until you think I'm ready, I just really have to know."

So after about a few months of that I get over it, I figure nothing is going to happen, so I move on. I ran into Dick in the very beginning of the summer, which probably would have sent me into a hysteric, but I think I had a pretty good distraction this summer, so I didn't put much thought into my Dick run-in.

However over this past weekend I ran into Mr. Big. I know you're either thinking "whoopee, big effing deal, you probably see the kid everywhere." or you're really excited. Let me just add on to those emotions you have my saying this - I saw him 100 miles away from where I live.

Now, here I am staying up late on a Sunday night with a million different emotions going through my head, Is this the sign i was asking for? or Am I ready for this sign? and the ever important What does this all mean?

Now I like to believe in William Shakespeare when he said “It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.”

I like to think that I have complete control over my life, but I don't. I don't think anyone really does.

So I guess a girl is left to wonder, in a neighborhood where I can barley even see the stars, how do I know if they hold my fate?