Today I saw something that I had never seen before.
Today my mother was filling out a job resume.
I know that my mother works, she's not really one of those "Stay- At-Home" moms, she's the kind of lady who has all of her priorities set. However I have never seen her actually fill out an application like that, it was so professional.
I had just gotten home from a really long walk, and I saw her sitting on the couch. I sat next to her and watched her filling out her application.
There was something in her eyes that I'd never seen before. I couldn't exactly tell if it was determination or fear, maybe it was a little bit of both.
I am just so proud of my mother. She's almost 50 years old, and she keeps trying new things. This is her first job resume, every other job just required an interview.
I guess the idea of getting married and having children scares me a little ( a lot). I am terrified that when I have children my daily life will become a cycle.
Wake up.
Make breakfast.
Make Lunch.
Send kids off to school.
Send husband off to work.
Clean.
Go food shopping.
Come home.
Put the food away.
Kids come home.
Make snack for the kids.
Help kids with homework.
Make dinner.
Husband comes home.
Eat dinner.
Get kids ready for bed.
Story time.
Bedtime.
Repeat.
Seeing my mother filling out that resume made me realize that I don't have to become that women. Her "first" of making a resume made me leave my fear. I realized that now I can do things with out any fear.
I can go ride a really fast roller coaster. I could wear heels to school. I could try living on my own. I could write a book and accept the rejection it would get from publishers. I could apply to Harvard. I could open my heart to a serious long-term relationship.
So my Diamonds, get yourself out there. You will never gain anything if you don't allow yourself to lose everything. Go make today a first.
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