Making All The Same Mistakes

Relapses.

It happens to the best of us.

We promise we won't give into our old ways, or make the same mistakes, but we do.

We fall for the same lies over and over again, and our heart breaks more times than you think is humanly possible.

I guess you could say I've recently made a mistake. I fell for some ones lies again. I didn't listen to the people who loved me and told me not to go through with it.

I try not to live my life with regrets, but this I regret.

However, this won't really affect my future. I'll be able to make through this.

One day I'll see a silver lining of listening to his lies, and hurting myself.

Maybe I should look at the lesson I learned, and it's a lesson that my friends are always right, and they always want to protect me, maybe it's that once I have decided to leave him in the past that is what I should do.

I should leave him behind.

I should let him leave.

Leave on a plane to Europe with out any thoughts of me, and that's the way it should be.

Sometimes you don't want that to happen though. Sometimes you just want to hold on to the memories, because you were so happy in those memories.

And it's been a long time since you were that happy.

You really deserve to be happy, but you can be happy with him moving on with out you.

You should let them go.

You need to let them go.

I have to let Derek go.