When It's Over

As a teenager I will make my life as complicated as possible.

But I'm really not trying to.

When a girl cries about something it usually means she was very passionate about the matter, or she cared a lot about the thing/person her tears were intended for.

For example, I cry when I hear about a dog being put-down; I cry when I see an inspiring love story on television; I cry when I hear about someone who lost their life to cancer, or is fighting cancer; And I cry when I know something isn't right with one of my friends.

This past couple of weeks I noticed I am losing touch with some of the people I considered to be my closest group of friends. And I didn't truly realize I was drifting away from them until I was sitting in a hotel miles away from them. I guess the physical distance just slammed it into my face that there was also a deep emotional distance.

The worst part? They know you're hurt about it, and they rub that in, just because they want to hide how hurt they are. There isn't a single teenage girl on this earth who wants to be the victim, we want to PLAY the victim, but the truth is we all want the upper-hand in a relationship, even if it is just with our friends. I hate to think I have ever done this to someone.

 I am a believer in a mutual relationship, if you say something that hurts me, I will tell you and I would want you to do the same. If you tell me this in a calm way I will listen to you, but I honestly have to much respect for myself to listen to you talk to me like you are so beyond me. I don't care how long we have been friends. No friend would honestly try to put you down like that.

So for some of my friends I sense our relationship is over. - You ignore me when I try to say something and you don't take me seriously.

I would honestly like to know what goes on in peoples minds when they put people down like that. Are they thinking "Well if I treat her like shit she will treat me like a queen and I can keep her like a little puppy-dog?"

Fuck No Bitch. I can tell you right now that I have plenty of friends who treat me with the respect I deserve, I don't care if we have known each other since preschool, and I have only been friends with these other people for a couple of years. You have changed since preschool. And I have too.

I'm not saying you can't be friends with someone forever, because you totally can. I;m saying a friendship, like any relationship is work, and it needs a mutual sense of respect.

If you don't treat your friends with respect, don't expect to have them for much longer.