Don't Let It Be Too Late

Moments.

Our lives are a serious of moments.

From our first cry, to our last words, and everything in between, these are the moments that amount to who we are.

That's important to remember Diamonds, we are the result of every moment we have ever lived.

Some times you don't get as many moments as other people do.

Life is unexpected, and so is death.

You could be on top of the world at one moment, and the next you've hit the ground, and you're gone.

So don't let anything ever go unsaid, unspoken, or unknown.

You don't know what will happen tomorrow, or if there will be a tomorrow for all of us, and I don't want to ever hear one of you say "I wish I had just... before it was too late."

Maybe you fear of the immediate consequences from telling someone something, but don't be. The pain you feel after telling them is nothing compared to the pain you will feel of them gone without ever knowing your true emotions.

Don't ever let it be too late.

Whether you are six, fourteen, twenty-three, or sixty years old, it can always be too late.

Perks of Being... Whatever I Am.

"We accept the love we think we deserve."- Perks of Being a Wallflower

So many people across the world have read that quote or heard that quote and had a moment of revelation.

Personally, I think it's the most powerful eight word sentence I've ever heard in my life.

I accept only the love that I think I deserve... it's really something to think about, huh?

It's hard to put into picture though, because sometimes I know I deserve more. My friends tell me all the time, that I deserve more than someone who is going to stand me up multiple times. I deserve more than someone who points out my flaws, who can't accept me for who I am and will always try to change who I am, even if I love who I am.

But what if someones love isn't good enough for you, but it's all they can give to you?

You know you deserve better than the love they give you, but that's all the love they can give, and they try really hard.

Normally I would tell someone to drop them, but now that it's happened to me, I don't know what to do, I can't leave this person behind right now because we're stuck together, but the love they give me only hurts me.

I know the love I deserve, but I have to put up with the love that I don't deserve.

Did I Just Really Do That...?

I cannot tell you how many times I've had an "OMG-moment"

In my opinion it's a moment when you do something so stupid or spontaneous that the second after you do it you grow a pit in your stomach or make a face as if to say "Gosh that's gunna hurt me in about five minutes...."

For example maybe you said something you couldn't take back, you tripped on something in public, or you sent a text message to someone that you shouldn't have.

Diamonds, I wish I could tell you that you get all your awkward moments over with during puberty, but they are actually only the beginning...

I think we should take some time to practice how we recover from these awkward moments now in our youth, or practice avoiding them.

Next time you want to tell a girl how much you really don't care about how her toothpaste spilled all over her pajamas, think about it first, and instead of telling her you'd rather die than listen to her talk try thinking of something else in your head, or just leave. It may seem rude to just get up and leave all abruptly, but I promise  it's a lot better to leave without saying anything than staying and saying something nasty.

My best advice for not doing anything stupid, put yourself in the other persons shoes, what would you feel like if someone said to you what your about to say? Or how would you react if someone sent you a text message like that?

That really always helps me avoid sticky situations, also reading a text twice before you send it, I've also found that these tips help you from not looking like an obsessive girlfriend, or a potential stalker.

And you won't believe how many more OMG-moments you'll get from being a stalker or an obsessed girlfriend....

I Like My Men Like I Like my Cream Cheese- Whipped.

Girl talk is a necessity.

You may think I am exaggerating but I promise you I'm not, and you know it.

Girls need to talk to other girls about anything and everything.

We need to vent about our grades, our parents, how our favorite character was taken off of the TV shows, and of course boys.

Now as I was having girl talk today over some fro-yo we went from our topic on whipped cream, to whipped boys, and our different opinions on them.

Personally I can see the benefits in having a boyfriend who is "whipped," he would literally do anything for you, and while that's really sweet, my friend Ana did point out that there's no challenge to a whipped boyfriend.

Which is really half the fun of having the boyfriend is the chase and trying to get him to like you, and having an excuse to act super flirtatious and mysterious at the same time.

Girls really appreciate those guys who will carry a torch for them, but at the same time we don't know how to react to those boys. We aren't use to people giving us so much attention, especially boys.

So we do what every girl does at one point in there life.

We friend zone the poor schmuck.

WE honestly feel awful about it, but we can't put too much thought into.

And men, if you are ever friend zoned you shouldn't complain about it, because we had two options in the matter- Friend zone you, or we could tell you to F*** off, and not talk to us.

It hurts us to tell you to F*** off, but we know how much it hurts you to be in the friend zone, my advice is if you think it's better to be in the friend zone than no zone, then stay and don't complain.

It's truly fear of the unknown, we don't know how to react to someone having such strong emotion about us like that.

So yes Diamonds, a boyfriend who will do anything for you is so much fun, and you know he really cares for you, but if there was no real fight to get him, then I guess you kind of miss out on your own passionate love story. I just suggest you to follow your heart, and to find the right guy that fulfills all your dreams, and let him be your boyfriend.

Sometimes It's One or the Other...

When I was little my mother would always tell me "Blood is thicker than water."

I understood she was trying to tell me that my family comes before my friends, and all else, but I didn't really listen.

I liked my friends more than my family when I was little. I had been hanging out with my family all my life, but   I had made new friends and they were different than my family. They had new toys, and we could talk about more things because we were both in the same classes and knew the same people.

And in some ways it's the same now. I can talk to my friends about things that I really couldn't talk to my family about like how as a teenager I feel a ridiculous amount of pressure, and I can vent to my friends about teachers, and people (usually) without any judgement.

However very recently I've been in certain cases where I choose my family over friendships I thought would last forever.

I know for a fact these people didn't think it would effect the relationship we have, but it has.

If you insult me, I'll get over it.

If you insult my friends, I'll make you regret it.

If you say things that I feel in anyway insult my family, I will promise you things will change, and you won't like the change.

Lately I have realized how lucky I am to have all of my family under one roof, and I would choose some of my family members over my life.

And I would honestly expect anyone to do the same for their family. I would understand someone choosing their family over me, because I would probably do the same.

Diamonds, I love you all, and you guys are like my family. But once you insult my family or one of their beliefs, I will turn into a New Jersey Housewife.

Random Kindness, And Some Good Ol' Carrie Bradshaw.

So yesterday might have been one of the best days ever.

But like, a really good unexpected.

My friend at my bus stop opened her back pack yesterday and handed me the DVD of Sex and the City. Her mother saw it and totally thought of me. which is just the sweetest thing.

Than my friend Ana on my bus got me a dress from her shopping spree simply because it reminded her of me.

I remember awhile back I made a blog post about random acts of kindness, and when things like that happen it brings me so much joy to know that these acts are happening, maybe not because of what i said, but just because of the goodness in someones heart.

However the best thing that happened was that yesterday was the 15th anniversary of the premier of Sex and the City ( the series).

Some of you may know me well enough to know I was tweeting about it all of yesterday.

However there is something I would like to clear up about the show.

I've heard lots of people tell me that they hate SATC, because they think it is the anti-feminist show. They see these women as completely unfeminist, like as if we went back fifty years ago.

I beg to disagree on behalf of Carrie, Miranda, Charlotte, and Samantha.

Each one of these women had their own careers, and wanted a man.

Look closely at how I used the word wanted, not needed. NO woman ever needs a man. some people need to get that through their heads, you don't ever need to be in a relationship, and that's some good advice for you boys too.

Sure Carrie longed for Mr. Big, but her life moved on without him.

So maybe we are hung up on someone, and maybe we will be for a while just like Carrie, but the truth is we move on, life move on, and the world still circles around the sun.

So you can get ride of this person, and I recommend watching SATC while doing it.

on another note- Mia Rickenbach is phenominal and miraculous.

thsank you

Making All The Same Mistakes

Relapses.

It happens to the best of us.

We promise we won't give into our old ways, or make the same mistakes, but we do.

We fall for the same lies over and over again, and our heart breaks more times than you think is humanly possible.

I guess you could say I've recently made a mistake. I fell for some ones lies again. I didn't listen to the people who loved me and told me not to go through with it.

I try not to live my life with regrets, but this I regret.

However, this won't really affect my future. I'll be able to make through this.

One day I'll see a silver lining of listening to his lies, and hurting myself.

Maybe I should look at the lesson I learned, and it's a lesson that my friends are always right, and they always want to protect me, maybe it's that once I have decided to leave him in the past that is what I should do.

I should leave him behind.

I should let him leave.

Leave on a plane to Europe with out any thoughts of me, and that's the way it should be.

Sometimes you don't want that to happen though. Sometimes you just want to hold on to the memories, because you were so happy in those memories.

And it's been a long time since you were that happy.

You really deserve to be happy, but you can be happy with him moving on with out you.

You should let them go.

You need to let them go.

I have to let Derek go.