You Were There, and Now You're Here, Where Next?

Lately I've realized that I've been living in the past.

I spend too much time worrying about history repeating itself, or I stress over past mistakes that I have no control over now.

Diamonds, you can't live in the past, it's done with and over. Yes, I know you have a million mistakes you wish you could take back, and if you had the chance you would do everything over again from the first grade, but that's not an option.

Turning back isn't an option, and it sucks. With all my heart I wish I could redo the past, especially the past month, but you know whats better than the past?

 The future.

The future holds so many more opportunities. One day you can leave the town you are in now, and you'll meet so many new people who won't judge you on your past because they weren't there for the past.

Stop worrying about the past, and start focusing on the future.

An Open MInd

So maybe my recent attempts to swear off all friendships has become somewhat of a failure.

I thought it would be easiest if I never let anyone get close to me because then I would not have to deal with the pain of letting a close friend become just another face in the hallway, or another name on a grave.

But I have realized that keeping people out is a lot harder than letting people in, and you just have to take the risk of them hurting you.

There will always be people who you can count on, even if you don't want to admit you can.

So Diamonds that's my big lesson for the day, you can't kick everyone out of your life. Yes, you can leave certain people who you don't listen to you or keep your promises, but you have to keep your mind open so that the right people find their way into your life.